1/15/2007
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Christ lives
6:32:00 PM
1/02/2007
trying to make kwonsimoo admit that she loves you at 1.30am in the morning is not easy AT ALL. audreykhoo, i am hurt! :'(
Christ lives
1:34:00 AM
HELLO 2007goodbye 2006? heh, just wanna thank God for 2006 and all the blessings He showered me with throughout the year. am truly thankful for all the aaamaaaziiiinggg people He's blessed me with : new friends & old(: i couldnt have possibly gotten through 2006 without all these people and of course my wonderful Saviour!
the list of people i will miss goes on and on and on. i really really love you guys.
orientation is very soon. im rather excited actually :D
bunch dinner today at ichiban boshi at the esplanade(: only 5/7 made it. i realised how dinners/outings like that would not be as often as before(due to our busy schedules?) but i really really want bunch to be as bunch-ey as ever 20 years down the road.I LOVE THAT
BUNCH.my fun loving, crazy friends and the stupid things we do(:
eh Deirdre the mother boon Nah, my bestie boon! i love you like shit. our 5 phonecalls a day will be missed. our nightly chats, walking together & being honest too. i think i'll feel damn weird not hearing your whinyass voice everyday. thanks for everything! i love you <3 (farewell letter soon, i promise)
eh Kat the fathleen Ong. I NEED YOU. and of course you know i love you cos i always remind you :D thanks for being there always my friend. you mean alot to me and you need to know that! haha i dont think words can ever describe how thankful i am for you. You're a blessing. you know? <3
eh Gourie the lover. dont you dare go around getting new lovers you get? YOU ARE MINE. hahaha, i love you lah pans. you never fail to make me smile & your hugs are the best! (: i will miss you so you better keep on organising more & more bunch outings at weird restaurants.(no more three monkeys cafe, PLEASE) i love you! <3
eh Steph the armrest Tan. you are my favourite employer & armrest. thankyoo for your present today it was sooo beautiful & sweet. SMILE okay? your laughter is contagious. and so was your tiredness today. although we always argue on who shld be the ultimate armrest, i still love you alot! (: you're the best employer of all time [and my shoulder is always here for you to rest lah ok -.- ] unless i grow taller than you one day, i will always be your favourite&best armrest. <3 love you!
ahh tired. goodnight(:
Christ lives
12:18:00 AM
12/29/2006
"I believe we would worry a lot less and enjoy our lives a lot more if only we realise this truth: Our Abba Father is so strong that there is nothing He cannot do, and He is so loving that there is nothing He will not do for us!"i have not forgotten. i cannot. the truth is beautiful, something we can hold on to and trust in this ever changing world. in the midst of chaos, we can only truly find our perfect rest in Jesus. when i look to Him, thats when all my worries & troubles seem so small. when i cry out to Him, everything thats bothering me has no choice but to run away. He is for me. He who is bigger than all things, is for ME. thank God for today, it seems like the first time im staying home to rest & have time for myself. i dont know why i've been so busy lately or what i've been labouring for. i knw its 'labour' and 'worry' cos i wrote down somewhere that ' labour exhausts, and worry is labour'. to be honest, i havent been the most faithful and devoted thing. & i havent been rejoicing over blessings. usually i wld jump up & down and praise God when i see blessings like that. but lately, i feel so tired & old. too tired to jump about or even say a word of praise. i havent been talking to God much & i havent been talking about Him much either. i miss my Abba. i think i forgot the fact that He is always here with me and i miss Him. I know He misses me so much more. sometimes i wonder how my Heavenly Father, so almighty and perfect, could put up with such ungrateful & fickle brats like me. but He does anyway, He does put up with & love me despite and inspite of me. wow, such an amazing love dont you think? (: that's something humans can never achieve. unconditional love.
Now, despite of all i've done or have failed to do, i know He still loves me all the same. and THAT, makes me love Him more. that makes me more grateful & that makes me wanna run back into His arms and dance in His presence (: that is grace. grace grace grace grace grace. i thought i knew all about grace when i learnt about it at church. but till now, i am still learning about God's perfect grace. i still dont know all about it. to me, its impossible to know or understand fully the things of God. cos when you think He loves you this much, He actually loves you more. in the case of God, its always MORE, more and much more. ABUNDANCE. overflow, exceedingly, beyond all that you can ever think or ask. so i want to know MORE AND MORE of Him each day. i may have strayed from Him but He always leads me back on the right track.
its like, a kid lost in a crowded mall. it may have happened because he was too preoccupied with some toy. his fault. but after hours of searching, im sure his parents wld embrace him and be thankful for his return instead of reprimanding him.
okay bad example :/ , ahh, like a shepherd losing his sheep and finally bringing it back in His arms instead of beating the sheep to death. HEH
thank God, He still blesses me with showers of blessings & the company of great people despite all my crap. friends are one of God's greatest blessings, indeed.
i miss my lover btw. LOVER! see you on 1st jan (: you are supposed to organise the outing. silly pans. i dont think you'll see this. AHH O:
Christ lives
12:19:00 PM
12/18/2006
japan
share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=0BbMnLZu2aMXJg<3 just for clarissa lim my loveliest friend in the whole wide world
to clare: happy now? i bet you're grinning to yourself and thinking of how awesome a friend i am
Christ lives
10:28:00 PM
To : You who care about me
RE : I am still alive
Hello there,
I have returned from Japan(!!!) :] Ok, that is old news. I'm flying off to Macau tomorrow morning and will be back on the 23rd. Please remember to remember me while I am away. By the grace of God, Japan trip was blessed and unforgettable. It was my first time going overseas without my family. First time i bathed with so many people, (and even accidently saw charmaine choy and clarissa so.. bare and naked). it was... GROSS! 18 in a room was so cosy and nice, just like one big family (: I think this trip made me a more independent and OPEN person(clare's influence?) ah, i shall spare you the boring details(you can read about the trip at :
http://iridescentbeads.blogspot.com) the trees in Japan are really pretty and i tried to capture many beautiful things. but i guess you really have to be there to
feel it. like the fireworks in disneyland :D videos and photos are just not as good as the real thing(even with the best camera)thats what i learnt. Heh, disneyland was... one word : extravagant! everything was supersized man. I also discovered my love for thrilling rollercoasters! heh, though i freaked out at superland :] all in all, the trip and the exchanges we had was superb! i dont regret any minute of it (: and did i mention i love batchies and the section.
NOW i am a busy girl! i really really miss my lovely friends like crap.
to : you-know-whoS
thank you for the wonderful day (: i love you all like shit lah okay. actually i doubt you will read this but whatever. haha, will miss everything!
to : xinya
I MISS YOU and your cute msgs which show how much you understand me. hahaha, meet up soon PLEASE :D
Christ lives
6:58:00 PM
To : You who care about me
RE : I am still alive
Hello there,
I have returned from Japan(!!!) :] Ok, that is old news. I'm flying off to Macau tomorrow morning and will be back on the 23rd. Please remember to remember me while I am away. By the grace of God, Japan trip was blessed and unforgettable. It was my first time going overseas without my family. First time i bathed with so many people, (and even accidently saw charmaine choy and clarissa so.. bare and naked). it was... GROSS! 18 in a room was so cosy and nice, just like one big family (: I think this trip made me a more independent and OPEN person(clare's influence?) ah, i shall spare you the boring details(you can read about the trip at :
http://iridescentbeads.blogspot.com) the trees in Japan are really pretty and i tried to capture many beautiful things. but i guess you really have to be there to
feel it. like the fireworks in disneyland :D videos and photos are just not as good as the real thing(even with the best camera)thats what i learnt. Heh, disneyland was... one word : extravagant! everything was supersized man. I also discovered my love for thrilling rollercoasters! heh, though i freaked out at superland :] all in all, the trip and the exchanges we had was superb! i dont regret any minute of it (: and did i mention i love batchies and the section.
NOW i am a busy girl! i really really miss my lovely friends like crap.
to : you-know-whoS
thank you for the wonderful day (: i love you all like shit lah okay. actually i doubt you will read this but whatever. haha, will miss everything!
to : xinya
I MISS YOU and your cute msgs which show how much you understand me. hahaha, meet up soon PLEASE :D
Christ lives
6:58:00 PM
12/07/2006
flyyinggg to japan in a few hours! four years of band and countless tiring band pracs end with this trip (: HAHA, its gonna be good man. i know it, cos i have God's good promises to hold on to :D
\crowned with favour, clothed in righteousness, held safe in my Abba's arms, i am leaving! haha, plus my exploding luggage(:
KATHLEEN ONG XINWEI. (if you ever see this) : I MISS YOU LIKE CRAP. i wanna hear your kangaroo stories okay! my present too! hehehe :D days without you are a little weird.
dear shar, i will definitely remember what you said when i see my plane food kay? (: haha you're cute and i miss you too. FATS! i shall go and call you now.
HAVE FUN!
Christ lives
3:07:00 PM
11/26/2006
we can never be satisfied. let us just be contented with what we already have?
:D quite an unexpectedly good day. spent half of it sleeping. but.. somehow i feel
back again,
alive again, happy and rested (: thank You Lord. thank God for ethel. heehee :D was late for serving yet again :/
the desire for acceptance.
we try and try to get what we want, thinking that God doesnt want to/ cannot help us. sometimes its because we find our desires "not Godly", eg. materialistic desires? sometimes its because we find our desires too small for the Almighty to even bother about. surely He understands, He is the One who created you! surely He wants to help, His love for you is higher than the heavens. i know that my Abba knows every part of me even better than i do myself. my most secret desires, those i keep in my heart. all the questions i have(however stupid they might seem). HE KNOWS, HE UNDERSTANDS. He wont just sit there and say "ok, let's see how you're gonna get through this". He wants His precious children to sit at His feet and ask Him. ask Him for your supply, ask Him for wisdom, ask Him for this, for that... He never runs out! He is ever willing to GIVE GIVE GIVE. He died so that we may have life, and life more abundantly. life meant to be enjoyed, not a life where we toil and labour to get what we want. a life well taken care of by Him(: He is the Provider and my Father. He freely gives me all things.
it took me so long to realise that unconciously i was labouring, running after so many things. this is not for me to worry or labour. since He put these desires in my heart, He will help me and satisfy them(: like a dog going in rounds trying to catch its tail, but he finally stops "pursuing" it, the tail will follow him wherever he goes!
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be GIVEN to you as well
Matthew 6:33 (: this life You've given.
the Lord bless you and keep you safe!
Christ lives
5:20:00 PM
11/24/2006
fill me up with love +
i need it, perfect love casts out all fear. (i know i have it) love that never leaves or forsakes, love that is unconditional, asking nothing in return (:
oh (very)tiring but pleasant(overall?) day. those days are back to stay :/ cant really believe i got myself into this yet again. hurr. still, time spent with ppl i care abt was priceless. eh clarissa lim cj/ president- dfc, you make me laugh till i slant to one side. haha. i dont know what i'd do without you lah(i think you know what i mean) we need to go to our favourite place to play with the sand and look at the clouds soon. maybe we can do some amath hahaha.
yuping is so silly. (lipstick tastes funny)(yu an is fat)
Abba you give me strength and wisdom!
more than i could hope or dream of.
more than words can say
more, by all mores...
Christ lives
11:51:00 PM
